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I am now in Texas, we have moved. That's why I haven't updated or been active in any communities, I've been moving across the entire country and dealing with some family crap. My computer doesn't have internet still, I have to use my brothers or my cousin's when I can. So sorry I haven't been updating at all or been on AIM. I have no clue what my weight is because we didn't take our scale down with us. I've been pretty down lately, but Aguilera has been there to keep me moving. I'll try to update as much as I can.
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So sorry I haven't updated in so long everybody. I haven't updated or read my friends list at all, I will be moving across the country next week, so I've been really really busy. I've been pretty down and sad, and my weight has plateued. But I'm still here, and I'll try to read my friends list and update more.
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My inner child is forty-five years old today

My inner child is forty-five years old!


I've never really liked children, not even when I
was one. I want things neat, ordered, and
adult--fine wine instead of french fries, pina
coladas by the pool instead of beach sand
between my toes. Now if only my fellow adults
would stop acting like such, well, children!


How Old is Your Inner Child?
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Great, I'm an old guy. Sigh.

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"Razors pain you; Rivers are damp; Acids stain you; And drugs cause cramp. Guns aren't lawful; Nooses give; Gas smells awful; You might as well live."
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Sorry it's been so long since an update. I've been really busy and pretty down, so I haven't updated at all. I'm still floating between 205-207 because I wasn't able to fast or anything because of constant social dinners and lunches over the last couple weeks. I'm starting a fast today, trying to see how far I can make it. Many people heard about my family moving, so they are all wanting to have us over for dinner or something like that. I've been pretty down lately, about my weight, about moving away from my couple good friends. I really need to watch Girl, Interrupted but I don't have any way to do so.
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All my food related social requirements should be over for a while now, so I will start my fast tomorrow. Everytime lately I try to start it I have some social and food related thing that ruins it. I should be ok now, I figure I'll just go until I am forced to eat again by a social requirement.

Any of you ever find certain music that for some reason just seemed to comfort you while you tried this?

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What do you all think of eyeglasses? I just went to the eye doctor today and got some trial contacts and picked out new glasses. My contacts kinda bother me and don't have as good of vision, but that might be temporary. My question is do glasses look really bad or just if you get a bad pair? My new one's I picked out are Gucci and almost 300 dollars, so they are a nice pair.
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Sorry I haven't updated in a day or two, my fast was completely demolished when I couldn't find a way to get out of eating with some relatives without insulting or offending them. The last two days I've just kept it easy and tried to research why I've plateaued, I think I will start another fast again tomorrow.
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Well it's been a day now since I"ve started my water and sugar-free gum fast. So far so good.
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Well yesterday was a failure. Ended around 1700 or so. I hung out with my bro and a friend watching movies and stuff, and they had food everywhere and it was all my favorites. Today I hope to just survive and start drinking more water, and tomorrow I'm starting a fast.
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I ended yesterday at 600 or so, today I plan to be under 300 or so. We'll see how it goes. I weigh the same today as I did yesterday, so hopefully under 300 should jump-start me again.
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So far so good, I'm at 298 for the day. Worked from 9:30 to 4:15 or so. Currently at my house with my best friend and my brother, going to see the Transporter 2 tonight.

I have a question if you guys know the answer, I know under 18.5 BMI is considered underweight, but at what weight are people alerted to look for anorexia?

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Just got home from work. I'm currently at 300 cals, and worked a 7 hour shift. So far so good.
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Well today I had a total of about 810 calories. My goal is under 900 each day, with my active job that's enough for me to continue losing my weight.

On other news, I met up with a guy who used to be my best friend back in freshman/sophmore year of highschool. Was cool, but kinda awkward. He is now going out with my ex, so it's all kinda weird. But we played poker, and incase you don't know poker is my baby, I love it. Play 3-5 hours online a day. Had a really bad day today, I'm down 10 bucks to my friend.

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So today on my lunch break at work I binged on three boxes of candy and two bags of cheetos, so I immediately went back to the employee bathroom and vomited all over the freaking place. I really need to figure out how to make that less messy, as I had to clean up to not cause suspicion at my work.

On a side note my knee is killing me again, I think I might have arthritis like my mom.

I love my user pic...so inspiring and beautiful.

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Finally got my new journal up and running. Bout time.
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